Bundle of joy...

I don't know where to start when I think of all the feelings you gave me when you came into this world.

How looking at you for the first time all wrapped in towels and blankets..made my day.. How my heart missed a beat..how touching you for the first time was the most wonderful thing I have ever done..how I was mesmerised by the way you started your cry..how your little cries made me joyful beyond bounds..

I will tell you how your bright little starry eyes made me feel...The way they looked back at me at me for the first time.. I felt so proud that you saw me.. Almost fell in love with myself.

I will tell you how your fragrant breath made me feel... The way it touched my cheeks when I kept you close to my heart..when you held my finger in your little hands..I felt loved and I felt you belong to me and I to you.

I will tell you how your beating heart made me feel alive and how your little hands told me I was not alone anymore.. I will tell you how fortunate it felt when I hugged you how peaceful it felt when I kissed you.. How I felt no meditation can bring me peace as I get when I sleep beside you.

You told me what is a bundle of joy.. You taught me how beautiful life can ever be.. You made me realised what is the biggest joy in life actually is.

I know you are going to go away.. I am never going to have you in my arms again...feel your breath your heartbeat your fragrance and your starry eyes staring back at me..But I am content that you are going to be okay.. Away from this painful world and people.. You are an angel you do not belong to this world.

You came here for a purpose.. You filled our lives with joy for a day and you are going to leave us in pain that will remain there in our hearts all our lives.. But you taught us many things..and virtues that not many of us possess.. Patience..thankfulness.. Understanding.. Helping each other.. Kindness and love.

Dedicated to my T18 nephew 

Azlaan Ammad Awan